Friday, 10 October 2014

book 3

Where She Went 
by Gayle Forman


This book is the sequel of the novel “If I Stay”. This view point of this book is of Adam and he tells what happened to Mia after she stayed. The story begins three years after Adam and Mia separated. Adam is now in New York and Mia is in Julliard. They both have different lives now. There are many flashbacks about what happened to them the last three years. One day, when Mia had a concert in New York, she and Adam met. The novel really evolves in that one day. At that time, they realized that they still love each other and they went back to each other’s arm.

Discussion Leader: Cahra Kincel E. Lipay

1. If you were Mia, would you also blame Adam for making you stay? Why?

=> Partly yes because first and foremost, he is the reason why I decided to live. I was ready to die but because of him, I felt that I still had a reason to live. It is also my fault because I decided to stay. When I was in coma, I know this could happen but I just thought of the present and not of the future. But If I were in Mia's position, I should not blame anyone because I know that it is my choice to stay alive and it is my responsibility because I wanted to be alive. We all agreed that this is Mia' fault and Adam is just a reason why she stayed. It is still her decision to be alive.

2. If you were Adam, would you also deny that Mia was once your girlfriend? Why?

=> Yes. If I were Adam, I would also do that. It is not because I don't love her anymore but because I love her that I want to protect her. If denying that she was my girlfriend will protect her, then I would do it because that's my way of showing I care for her. I'm not just protecting myself but especially Mia because I know it might ruin her and better to avoid her. I don't want to see her suffering because of me. We all have different ways of showing that we care and love another person and for me, avoiding is my way of showing that I love her. Some of us agreed and some did not. I'm one of those who agreed for this is my way of protecting my love ones. Some said that they have a different way of protecting.

3. If you were Adam, would you also enter relationship just to move on? Why?

=> No. I won't go into a relationship because I know it would not work. If I were Adam and I know that I still love Mia, I would never go into a relationship just to forget her. It is unfair to side of the new girl that I will be courting if she will know that I don't really love her and I am just using her to move on. There are many ways to move on and I think it is not right to use other people. We also agreed that it is not right to go into another relationship just to move on.

4. What if Adam did not watch the concert of Mia, what do you think would happen?

=> If they are really for each other, I guess they will still see each other. If they are really meant to see each other, they will see each other how impossible the situation may be. But I guess this is the perfect time for them to see each other. They met there because it is the right time for them to be together again. Three years is enough to heal their hearts and to start over. We believe in destiny that we believe they will still see each other in different time.

5. Are you satisfied with the ending? Why?

=> Yes because they were together again. It is still a happy ending after all. If they were still separated until the last, I would be very disappointed. But I came to realized that it is not on how they are separated but on how they are able to survived the pain and be together again. It is not just about happy endings that the readers are satisfied, but on how the story went before it came to end. I guess the story is good that I like its ending, not just because they were back together but because of how Mia and Adam fought the challenges that made a happy ending for the both of them. Some said that they are not satisfied with the ending because it is a cliffhanger for them. Some said that it was good and I'm one of them. 

Passage Picker - Merwilyn P. Bagatua

1. "Every morning I wake up and I tell myself this. It's just one day, one twenty-four hour period to get yourself through." (Chap.1, p.1)
This passage I think is true to life. Every day is a constant struggle. One day is technically made up of long twenty-four hours. Long enough when the person is in pain, miserable, solitude, sadness, or even when in boredom and missing someone. Just like me when I really feel so sad, I feel like a day very long.

=> I agree to this passage. Every morning we should get up and be ready for life because we are alive. It's brand new day that the Lord has given to us. When we face problems and it burdens us, we should be more thankful for we have the chance to solve it. There are also days that we don't want to get up because we are afraid that this day might come but if we don't get up, we cannot know what lies ahead of us.


2. "Basically, all the saints of the world: Men. The jerks, the players, the wet T-shirt contest afficionados? They were guys. Back then, I was a Man."(Chap.12, p.144)
Personally I just like this passage. It’s just funny how people can categorize other people too. According to Mia and Kim there are two kinds of men. Adam back then was a man but after three years, he becomes a guy which hurts him. And I also agree with it.

=> Adam said this because he was a man back then but now, he is a guy. The Adam before and the Adam now is different because they think differently. He was a man because he did what a man should do. Now, he is just a total jerk. He was a man because he was in love at that time and was loved but knows he's just the same as other boys who were left and felt unloved.

3. "Quitting's not hard. Deciding to quit is hard." (Chap. 16, p. 182)

This sounds like a motto to me. I really agree with this passage. Simply because it's true that to quit is easy. It's easy to say and just quit. When you quit, you stop, do away from a burden, give up, you feel relieve and the like. But to decide is a burden for you to think especially if that something that you're about to quit means a lot to you and  you will have a hard time to think and think to arrive at a conclusion which is to finally to decide whether you quit or not. Just like for Adam here, it is not easy for him to quit the band because it is his passion and music is almost his life. Then he must also think of others, what will be the effect of his quitting and what would happen to him if he finally decide to quit. And that's it, quitting is easy, just quit and so be it. But to decide requires so much thinking and weighing the effects of it.

=> I also agree to this phrase. It's so easy to quit. Just say you had enough then that's it. It's over. What is difficult is to decide whether to quit or to fight. The process of thinking that you want to quit is the hard part. You have to think of the effect and outcome if you quit and if you quit, it will still be hard for you to get over to it. If we feel that we want to quit, we should remember why we fought that long and what we are fighting for. Is it really right to give up and just quit? You are not just disappointing yourself but also other people that believe in you. You will never know the outcome if you quit.
4."You were so busy trying to be my savior that you left me all alone." (Chap. 16, p. 184)
Mia told this to Adam.

=> Personally, I love this phrase. I love this because this is what I always do. I am always trying to protect my love ones that I avoid them. I don't want them to get in trouble that I bring. It cause a lot of pain for them and also for me that I just carry the burden to myself. I don't want them to be involved that I think it is better that I handle our problems alone. It is not that I left them because I wanted to but it is because it is my way of protecting them. It’s also for their own sake. They just feel that they are left but it’s not true. I never left a friend; I just want to protect them. Sometimes, I feel that I’m the problem that I am avoiding them because I want to protect them from me. I don't want them to be hurt that I prefer to hurt myself. I don't want to see other people are suffering because of me that I want the burden to be carried just by me, alone.

5. "If we didn't entirely understand the other person's obsession, it didn't matter, because we understood our own." (Chap. 19, p.212)

This passage means that we really don't have to understand what other people do or their likes in their lives. What's important is we understand what we have. Just like in Adam and Mia, both are music lover while others aren't. So, they don't have to bother themselves understanding about them as long as they understand each other's obsession which binds them.

=> We should not judge about other people’s life because we have our own life to handle. We can't understand them sometimes but we should focus on our ourselves. We keep on judging other peoples flaws but we don't look on ours. We should first make sure that we understand our own lives, our purpose before we judge them.


 Connector:  Sheila Almarie G. Daguman

After the terrible accident, Mia continues her life without her family in her side. Although it is very painful for her to continue life like an orphan she has endures it. Moreover, the love from her family which is missing in her life is supplemented by her relatives and friends.

I can connect my life with Mia's. However, I am more fortunate than her for it was only my mother who had passed away. On the other hand, Mia is already teenager when her parents and brother passed away while I am at a very young age when my mother died. And she is not as miserable like what I am experiencing sometimes. However, sometimes I also feel emptiness even though some members of my family are still here but it seems that something is lacking. Like Mia who is wondering what would be her life if she still has her family with her, I am also wondering what would be my life today if my mother is still alive. Would it be better than the life that I am taking now?

Sometimes I wish that my mother is still with me so that there is someone whom I can share as with my sentiments and problems which I cannot share with my present family today. For I think they will just tell me that I am over acting. I'm also missing her as Mia misses her family. Furthermore, Mia is still blessed for she has a relatives and friends who did not get tired of loving her. And I realized that like Mia I am also blessed for having relatives and friends whom I can feel the love that sometimes I did not feel from my very own family.


General View:
ð  I was shocked about the connection that the connector made. I did not expect that she will connect it to her mother. I guess she has done a good job. But I will just react over what she is feeling about her family. I guess she should not think that her family is like that or she is not fortunate because there are more unfortunate than her. I guess she should not be a pessimist about her family rather she should accept her situation. On whatever situation we have, especially to our family, we should always look to the bright side and be thankful. We don’t know that our problems are so minimal compared to the problems of others. We should be contented on our situation for God has a purpose why He did such a thing.

Character Captain: Johanna Ariexia S. Quilinderino

Adam Wilde – he is the narrator of the story. He was the boyfriend of Mia. He is the vocalist of a band named Shooting Star. He is currently living at New York.

STRONG - In the story “Where She Went” I find Adam as a strong character for he always finds ways to try to forget Mia. However, it is very evident in the story that he can never forget Mia and is impossible to get away with the things that they used to do. But the thought of him trying to get rid and to move on is already a manifestation that he is tough and strong. For all we know, forgetting someone who is very dear to us is an intolerable thing.

CARING – We can still feel in the story that Adam still cares for Mia especially when he found out that Mia is still alive. When a reporter went to him to ask about what is his relationship with Mia, he tried to avoid the issue. Instead he decided to keep it as a secret so that Mia won’t be connected with his life so that, Mia will be able to live her life peacefully.

HONEST – He is honest in a way that he admits to Mia that he is still in love with her. However, the honesty of him only was showed at the latter part of the story. Another honesty of Adam was also shown when he told Bryn the truth about Mia and about being in love with her. It was not an easy thing to do but he managed to the right thing so that at the end, no one will be hurt.

ð  For me, Adam has a strong character. He never stopped loving Mia but he chose to let her go because that was the right thing to do. He is also aggressive and easily-angered. After Mia and he separated, he became a different person. He totally changed. But for me, he is still the same Adam before Mia woke up. He is still caring and he still loves Mia very much. I also agree to the character captain on how he describes Adam.

Mia Hall –she was the girlfriend of Adam. She stayed and Adam was the one who told what happened to her after she stayed.

STRONG – She showed a different side of Mia where being strong was her only option. Waking up every day is really difficult especially thinking that you alone will be the one to face the day. Mia took the challenge of moving on even if it is so hard to accept the fact that she was left alone. Instead of giving up, she accepted the incident as an inspiration to move forward.

MARTYR- I consider her as a martyr for even though she still loves Adam, she avoided him to make everything okay. I believe that what Mia did was a constant reminder that no matter how you love someone, you still need to consider the things around you. Be sensitive enough to identify if what you really wanted is still appropriate.

FIGHTER – being strong comes with a fighter inside. That is what exactly Mia showed in the whole story. Obviously, she went through a lot of circumstances that made her a fighter.
ð  I agree on the character captain. She is strong for she fought the loneliness and pain after she stayed. Imagine, you are living a life with no more parents, you are alone. But Mia surpassed all this. I guess she and Adam is the same for they sacrifice their love for each other for they know it is the right thing to do. They are both martyr. She is also a fighter for she always fight and she never surrenders, whatever circumstances she might be in.

Brynshe is the new girlfriend of Adam but he doesn’t really love her.

WORRIED – Obviously, she’s not the typical girl who has her own lovable prince charming. But the fact that she has this boyfriend named Adam is not exactly the fulfillment of her fairytales. In the story, Bryn is completely worried about having this ghost rival towards Adam. Because even though they were together already, it cannot still justify that Adam loves her.

CONSTANT- she is very consistent from the very beginning till the end. She showed a normal character of a girl. Never tried to intrude between what’s going on to Adam and Mia.

FALMBOUYANT - in the story, she is the top-celebrity who will make every man head over heels for her.

General View:
Personally, I think the character captain can do more. What she passed is somewhat not enough, I guess. But I know she have done her best but I guess I’m still looking for some adjectives that really describes the characters. But it is still a good job for she has done her part.

Artistic Adventurer: Chinny Grace G. Oraiz

Walk Away

It’s been three years since the accident
Wondering where in the world you went
Three years since you walked out of my life
I don’t know why, have we been in strife?

Missing you every day and every night
Looking for you my beautiful sunlight
It is just your hand that I want to touch
To tell you the words “I love you so much”

Every day, I’m waiting for your return
Every day, watching the time to turn
I guess that you don’t want me anymore
I set you free and you walked out the door


=> I like the poem very much for it describes what happened to Adam and Mia. I can feel the emotion.

Vocabulary Enricher: Angel May S. Bagaforo

Note: The meaning of the words comes from the English Dictionary. Each word has many meanings that I only put what is applicable to the scene.

1.    Unfurl  /ʌnˈfɝl/

“Letting go. Everyone talks about it like it’s the easiest thing. Unfurl your fingers one by one until your hand is open. But my hand has been clenched into a fist for three years now; it’s frozen shut.” [Adam] (Chapter 16, Page 196)

Verb
-          To unroll something that has been rolled.
Example:         She unfurled the sail when the boat started its engine.

-          It was used in the novel to describe letting go. This happened when Adam and Mia had a conversation before they separated. Mia told Adam that it was because of him why she stayed. Adam was between the decision to hold on or to let go. Adam chose to let go of Mia because at that time, it was the best thing to do.

-          In this paragraph, letting go is compared to a hand that is easy to open. You just have to unfurl your fingers. But Adam’s hand is tightened and it is now a fist. When your hands are clenched, it is difficult to open it. He is saying that it is hard for him to let go of Mia because he loves him so much. He does not want to let go of Mia but he has to.

2.    Annihilate /əˈnaɪə.leɪt/

“Hate me. Devastate me. Annihilate me. Re-create me. Re-create me. Won’t you, won’t you, won’t you re-create me.” [Adam] (Chapter 23, Page 266)

Verb
-          To destroy
Example:         Too much stress can annihilate one’s immune system.

-          It was used in the novel as the chorus of Collateral Damage. Adam made the song because of anger and pain that the separation has brought. He wanted the crowd to know that he is suffering and only Mia can change what he is feeling. But in the end, the meaning of the song changed. It is not an angry plea anymore but a new vow. It is now the new promise of their love for each other.

-          The chorus shows that in love you will be hurt and you will also hurt the one that you love. You will encounter circumstances that will make you sacrifice. It also shows that being destroyed is the only way to change. One can be repair, only when he is destroyed. Adam is now destroyed, after all the things that happened to them, that Mia can only fix him. After you suffered, you will be a better person.


3.    Nebulous /ˈnɛbjʊləs/

“The rest of the plan that’s formulating in my head –part of which already is solidified in some nebulous way last night on the bridge –I keep to myself, but I think Aldous senses it.” [Adam] (Chapter 21, Page 244-245)                

Adjective
-          Vague or ill-defined
Example:         Success of course is very nebulous; sometimes failure is easier to spot than success!

-          It was used in the novel when Adam made excuses why he can’t go to London. He was with Mia that he wants to spend that day with her. He thinks that Aldous understands his decision not to go there. He has many things to do. Make music video and do interviews but at that time, he just wants to be with Mia.

-           He can’t think of clear reasons to excuse himself from the band but he is sure what he wants. He just wants to be with Mia and it’s all that matters. What he knows at that time is that he will not lose Mia again. Not this time.

4.    Murk /mɝk/

“I stare down at the water. A minute ago it was calm and glassy but now it’s like the river is opening up, churning, a violent whirlpool. It’s that vortex, threatening to swallow me whole. I’m going to drown in it, with nobody, nobody in the murk with me.” [Adam] (Chapter 16, Page 196)

Noun
-          Darkness or gloomy environment
Example:         There is murk in the center of the universe.

-          It was used in the novel to describe what Adam feels at that moment. This is when he and Mia are on the river and they are about to separate. Mia told Adam that he made her stay and he has faults on what happened to her after she stayed. Adam blamed Mia for ruining him but he realized that he was the one who ruined himself.

-          In this scene, Adam felt that he is alone. That no one understands and will understand him. He is in the darkness that no one will see and help him. This is when he decides that he should let go of Mia and that decision made him feel that he is now alone. Adam compared his feeling of loneliness to a whirlpool that will drown him and there will be no one to help him.


5.    Cathartic

“I meant it as a compliment. It was very cathartic for a lot of people, myself included. And that’s my point. Everyone knows something went down during your ‘black hole.’ It’s going to come out eventually, so why not control the message? Who does the ‘collateral damage’ refer to?” [Vanessa] (Chapter 1, page 22)

Adjective

-          Releases emotional tension, especially after an overwhelming experience
Example:         Sometimes, it is good to have cathartic things.
           
-          It was used in the novel to show how the song affected their fans. This happened during the interview of Vanessa, a reporter, to Adam about their album. Vanessa is asking Adam what happened to him why he made that song and for whom the song is intended to. She said that Collateral Damage is like the angriest album of the decade. Adam said that he did not make the song and it was made by his band mate.

-          The song releases emotions that the fans can feel. It is not just a song full of emotions but there is more to it. It is like the song was made because of anger and pain and it was based on the experience of Adam. Vanessa feels that Adam is the one who made the song and it was based on his personal experience. The song has anger that she thinks Adam maybe went to a relationship that he never wanted to end.

- this is the task that was assigned to me.for me, I did my best in making my past and I'm happy to its result.


Summarizer: Maricris G. Santos

It’s been three years since Mia woke up from the state of being coma. Adam and Mia departed and enjoy their lives separately. Mia continued her dreams at Julliard while Adam and his band went to New York.
They enjoyed the fame brought by their musical career. Adam narrated the events that happened during the past three years, what happened to him after their break up. He made a song about the pain that he felt when they broke up. 
One day, on the concert of Mia, they met again, talked, reminisce their past then realized that they still love each other and were back on each other’s arms.
The story ended with the concert of Adam. While Adam was singing the song he composed, the thought of the song changed, it is not just about the pain anymore. He felt that their hearts beat as one

=> The summary is too short that I realized it really does not tell the story. But I still appreciate the work of the summarizer for she did her best.

Overall view:
I like our performance in this book because everyone made a great job. Everyone made their part and I'm happy to its result.

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